Who am I attracted to?

I knew right when I was a kid that I was different.  Only a few would understand this and often I have been asked if I have been sexual at an early age.  This question comes from a gay person who may have only logic rather than a feeling. 

I did not know to whom and how should I be attracted to a man. I grew up thinking that I could be in a relationship with a straight man.  Crazy as it may seem, but no one really showed me the way.  The Soul inside me just keeps on pounding whenever I am with a very masculine man.  I grew as a teenager realising this and to this day I could attribute my reasons for being discreet to the fact that I am attracted to masculine men. 

I am also attracted to Gay White Men partly because of the physical aspects.  I am thinking though that much of my attraction too was because of the way they think and their practicality in life.  It is hard to find though gay white man who is sensitive.  Though their ways are opposite of a crazy culture such as the asians,  I would want a life time partner who does not have a hardened heart.